hmmm.....

사랑할 수 있는 사람들을 부러워하는데 부럽지 않다 사랑스럽다고 생각한다 사랑에 빠질 수 있는 사람도 좀 부럽다 그래도 그런 사람들을 부럽지 않다 

Find this while randomly googling cousins after remembering their existence (No C, or V or Akka none of you) Telegu Native or bilingual proficiency There is no crying face that can show how I feel right now. Good thing I am not even remotely close to the said cousin. PS: For people who are not familiar....its Telugu not Telegu.

While growing up, we did not have a lot of religious ceremonies at home. That said, I was surrounded mainly by 'god believing people' and stories of cool ancestors who 'did not believe in god'. If you know me personally, you should know how I feel about my maternal family. I believe we are the Indian-amazon warriors. No, no-one came from royalty or even from well-off families, but everyone I had the privilege of knowing is extremely strong in their own way. But a person who helped shape my childhood and makes me go 'what would she do?' whenever I face a hardship is my maternal granny. (Aka Amma/Ammamma).  Ammamma did not impose any of her 'life principles' on us even though she was bossy and knew how to get work done.It was just the way she did things, the way she handled people and situations that was awe inspiring to this very day, four years after she left this world. I am not even closely as diplomatic as she was (or Amma aka Mom is). I am loud...

..it may just come and bite you to boredom or brain freeze. But sometimes you don't even wish for things and they just come and bite you to boredom or brain freeze.

can perfect a harmony

This trap that see in front of me Its a one I laid for myself It stood after as an impossibility But i wondered and dreamt about it, I wanted to make it mine to keep and see And I pulled it closer, charming it seemed It mesmerised me, made me smile It caught me off guard and then it trapped me Here I was in the past, standing afar from the trap Now amidst, I'm trapped in a trap I knowingly, laid down for me I knew I needed to stay away I knew I needed to put it away But no, the want got the better of me I knew I needed to get away but i tangled and tangled till I was more trapped Now I'm caged, in my own way No one's fault but mine But still, I am charmed and mesmerised by this trap that I laid down for me